[he's kept an eye on things -- relaxed when sanji finally made an appearance, retreated away to allow them their privacy, their shared grief. the most important thing had been done: they're together, a curl of orange and yellow, like the bleed of a new sunset. as long as sanji and nami have remained in one another's orbit, koby's kept at a careful distance, waiting for her to unfurl, reach out, put herself back together in whatever way she pleases.
but the message, when it comes is a startling one. sort of. koby already understands it, even as he rebels against it with all his might, a child stomping their feet, no, no, no. instead, thumbs hovering over the buttons for a moment:]
[he wants to. he wants to. it's not fair, making him grieve her before she's gone. it's not fair. he's going to lose them all anyway, he's always known that, he's always--]
[she is; koby can feel the edge of anger sizzling and sharp, like a fresh sunburn, and its -- comforting, in a way. nami angry is nami mobile and motivated and fighting. it's better than nami in the snow, nami hollowed out, nami giving up.
so it hurts but -- if she needs someone to be mean to, koby welcomes it with both arms.]
Okay. If thats what you need then Okay. [he just can't conceptualize it in the context of her leaving him.]
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but the message, when it comes is a startling one. sort of. koby already understands it, even as he rebels against it with all his might, a child stomping their feet, no, no, no. instead, thumbs hovering over the buttons for a moment:]
Why?
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like zoro.
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[immediately, unquestioningly.]
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Is that really what you want?
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Okay. I'll watch and I'll learn, so I know. If you need a break or
Something.
And I'll show you how to decode my files and where my stashes are, so you know.
But I can't think about being here without you. I can't. I'm not ready yet.
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( she's aggressive, angry, the natural second phase to brutal sadness — lashing out and wounding the people closest. )
it's not going to take me by surprise again.
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so it hurts but -- if she needs someone to be mean to, koby welcomes it with both arms.]
Okay. If thats what you need then
Okay. [he just can't conceptualize it in the context of her leaving him.]