A vampire. Okay. Do you need blood? We need to find your naming stone, we understand that part of things now. You won't be like this for long, don't worry.
hyunsus been letting me ummm drink from him ugh ew i feel bad sumtimes i feel like i cant stop nd im gunna drain him compleatly nd he says its fine but idk!!!! 😖
he told me hes gunna go find my stone but hes done 2 much fkn nice stuff 4 me idk how 2 deal
i dont wanna drink from ne 1 else 😞 i dont even want ne 1 2 c me like this 😞😞😞😞😞 but i will take the blood bags evn if the thot if it is gonna make me hurl fr
he alredy did the worst thing i coud posibly ask him 2 do 4 me i dont want him 2 suffer me more bc of me
Well, that's unfortunate, because you have people who care about you, and they're going to want to see you. I'll put it in a big cup with a straw, if it'll make you feel better.
Yes. He did. And it hurt him. And he'd do it again.
( his pure anguish is surely palpable — or something like it, a swirling concoction of fear and love (?) and guilt and probably every stupid emotion in between churning in his belly, a pang of thirst at the mere suggestion of blood. which — is fucking annoying, considering he sank his teeth into the tender flesh of hyunsu's inner wrist just before he left his room, drinking until everything started to fade around the edges and get pleasantly blurry, starting to lose himself to the instinct of it all before abruptly pulling off, panting. he shouldn't fucking be thirsty again. )
ur the only other person who mayb cares abt me n wants 2 c me but u prob shoudnt u kno how much i like 2 bite the way it is
[or -- he knows hate's one of the million things hao is feeling right now, a teeming mess that hisses and snarls and groans and hungers. it's a bad idea to get anywhere near that, really, but:]
I do, and I do want to, yeah. I'm not scared of you. I can take you, I'm pretty sure.
( hhhhhhgggggghrvrhrhrggghhhh he hates this sO fucking much. maybe he should've just waited until he was back to normal to message koby ..........
but a part of him wonders how he reacted when hyunsu had told him what had happened, how he's thought about hao since then. maybe that's a little narcissistic. maybe he just has a feeling (or some kind of fucked yo hope?) that it was bad. )
ugh fine im in my room
but its actually not fine if i hurt u bc ill never forgiv myself ok?? so i want u 2 grab my bat when u come in just in case itll b by the door im fkn sereous
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death has given hao a serious motherfucking existential crisis. )
yea
( a lie. )
mostly
( less of a lie. )
dont rlly feel all the way like myself yet
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You feel different.
I mean [that unseen, invisible touch again, worried, prodding.] that's normal, we've heard. Is there anything
Weird about you?
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( haha. ha. so funny. he wants to die. )
theres no cute way 2 say that im like
sum freaky nasty vampire
not 2 b dramatic but its taking all my wilpower 2 not kms bc i fuckin h8 it
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[absolutely zero thought for hao's ego, damn.]
A vampire. Okay.
Do you need blood?
We need to find your naming stone, we understand that part of things now.
You won't be like this for long, don't worry.
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drink from him
ugh
ew
i feel bad
sumtimes i feel like i cant stop nd im gunna drain him compleatly nd he says its fine but
idk!!!! 😖
he told me hes gunna go find my stone but hes done 2 much fkn nice stuff 4 me idk how 2 deal
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Well, he probably shouldn't be the ONLY one you're feeding from.
I have bags of blood in my room, you should supplement it with those.
But also he's quite literally your boyfriend. Taking care of you is sort of part of the deal.
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but i will take the blood bags evn if the thot if it is gonna make me hurl fr
he alredy did the worst thing i coud posibly ask him 2 do 4 me
i dont want him 2 suffer me more bc of me
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I'll put it in a big cup with a straw, if it'll make you feel better.
Yes. He did. And it hurt him. And he'd do it again.
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i fkn hate it
( his pure anguish is surely palpable — or something like it, a swirling concoction of fear and love (?) and guilt and probably every stupid emotion in between churning in his belly, a pang of thirst at the mere suggestion of blood. which — is fucking annoying, considering he sank his teeth into the tender flesh of hyunsu's inner wrist just before he left his room, drinking until everything started to fade around the edges and get pleasantly blurry, starting to lose himself to the instinct of it all before abruptly pulling off, panting. he shouldn't fucking be thirsty again. )
ur the only other person who mayb cares abt me n wants 2 c me but u prob shoudnt
u kno how much i like 2 bite the way it is
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[or -- he knows hate's one of the million things hao is feeling right now, a teeming mess that hisses and snarls and groans and hungers. it's a bad idea to get anywhere near that, really, but:]
I do, and I do want to, yeah. I'm not scared of you. I can take you, I'm pretty sure.
[...in a fight, koby?]
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u mean ur not scared of my big scary sharp vampire teeth?
( which Honestly don't look very different from his big scary sharp regular boy teeth. )
im nervous 🙃
( bro died one time and learned what fear is and now is experiencing Feelings all the time. )
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[he's had the non-vampy kind in his neck multiple times by now, after all.]
You won't hurt me. And even if you do, it's fine, you can't help yourself. You aren't yourself right now.
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but a part of him wonders how he reacted when hyunsu had told him what had happened, how he's thought about hao since then. maybe that's a little narcissistic. maybe he just has a feeling (or some kind of fucked yo hope?) that it was bad. )
ugh
fine
im in my room
but its actually not fine if i hurt u bc ill never forgiv myself ok??
so i want u 2 grab my bat when u come in just in case
itll b by the door
im fkn sereous
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After everything. With you and Sanji dying.
I needed to break some things.
So I know how to use it now.