No, of course not, but you can LOOK like one if you want. For a little. Very piratey.
He's being very patient with me, as always. I can't feel him like I normally can, so I'm being a little [clingy, panicky, jerking awake and reaching out in the night to make sure Quentin's still there beneath his fingertips] neurotic.
I'd like that. Everyone else is falling apart, and I've been on warming duty AND setting fire to the dead duty. I've been so busy I've barely seen him.
We make a good team. You can sense them coming, and I can light them up before they get too close. I'm not surprised at all that we compliment each other.
Oh. Good then. Let's sit them diagonally from each other, just in case.
The punching worries me. You get too close to them. Someone got his fingers bitten off.
That sounds like I egg him on. I don't do THAT. But sometimes he sees someone flirt with me and gets this idea that he needs to reclaim me. And I like that.
Right. It's nice. I mean I wish you could see it. I wish I could show you what I love about it.
If that ever happens, it doesn't have to be you. I won't ask anyone I love to do that.
You know. He talked about when you're a little rougher. The same things you told me about, the belt, the tying up. I haven't forgotten about what he offered, the night we got super drunk. I mean, unless you want me to. If you say the word, I won't ever think about it again, okay?
Now that the library's fixed, maybe we could see what's there. Books from my world would do, maybe. Movies from yours? Or whatever they're called, personal movies. Home videos.
You wouldn't need to do it alone, then. And we'd know what to do, now, how to resolve it quickly.
I'm curious, you know that. And I respect Hawk. So maybe? Maybe. He was more offering in a teaching role. I don't know how much steam that would blow off.
Home videos weren't around yet in my time. Television screens in the home are still new, I couldn't afford one, myself.
Would they know what to do? Actually, you've never told me if you have any traditions like that back home.
He offered to teach you instead of do it to you?
It's the 40 day period before Easter where we give up unnecessary temptations and vices so we can focus on the things that matter. It's been a few years since I've done it properly.
Really? But film was, right? We don't even have that, when I'm from.
Not really? Burial at sea is most traditional, I guess, for a sailor. Villagers still bury people in the ground, though. Mark the grave somehow, usually. But we don't really pray or do anything like that.
He offered to "help out". I didn't ask much further because I fell asleep under my bed around then.
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Speaking of scruffy, how's Quentin?
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He's being very patient with me, as always. I can't feel him like I normally can, so I'm being a little [clingy, panicky, jerking awake and reaching out in the night to make sure Quentin's still there beneath his fingertips] neurotic.
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I won't keep you from him long. Promise.
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I'll bring him along, next time. We can still have nice visits, in the midst of everything. It's reassuring to see one another in person.
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I'd like that. Everyone else is falling apart, and I've been on warming duty AND setting fire to the dead duty. I've been so busy I've barely seen him.
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You've been doing really well, Tim. I know you hate it, you have to, but you're giving a lot of people the hope and help they need. I'm proud of you.
After this we'll have dinner. All four of us. Hawk said.
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You have no idea. But thank you. That means a lot.
You got Hawk to agree? I thought he and Quentin were still mad at each other.
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You're welcome. I couldn't do this without you, you know.
It was Hawk's idea. He's
Trying. I can tell he's trying.
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We make a good team. You can sense them coming, and I can light them up before they get too close. I'm not surprised at all that we compliment each other.
Oh. Good then. Let's sit them diagonally from each other, just in case.
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Careful, you'll end up joining my trainings, once this is all over. Awaken some superpowers in you too.
That's a wise idea, yes. "Trying" doesn't mean perfection, after all.
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I picked my morning training back up with someone else. But maybe. Every so often.
He's been pretty perfect lately. Except when he's jealous.
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But yes, he's very cute. They all are.
Did you? Good, I'm glad. You'll have to keep me posted on what you learn. Still swords?
Are you trying to tell me you don't like when he gets possessive and jealous?
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Mostly. With some other things mixed in.
It depends. If he's taking it out on whoever he thinks he needs to be jealous of, I don't like it.
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It's good to be comprehensive. Easier that way to figure out what you like. Punching's been the easiest for me, though I do like the mop handle.
Ahhhh. Only when he's using it as motivation, then?
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The punching worries me. You get too close to them. Someone got his fingers bitten off.
That sounds like I egg him on. I don't do THAT. But sometimes he sees someone flirt with me and gets this idea that he needs to reclaim me. And I like that.
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No, no, with the revenants only the mop handle. Just to be safe. I don't want to get bitten.
Ahhh, that's more what I meant. Territorial with just the two of you.
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Still. You're really close. I don't want to do any more funeral rites.
Yeah. That, I like.
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I'll be careful. I won't do that to you, Tim, I promise.
And you're never scared? Hawk talked a little about
I mean. More intense things.
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Good. Because I wouldn't get through it without crying.
He did? Like what?
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I wish you could see it. I wish I could show you what I love about it.
If that ever happens, it doesn't have to be you. I won't ask anyone I love to do that.
You know. He talked about when you're a little rougher. The same things you told me about, the belt, the tying up. I haven't forgotten about what he offered, the night we got super drunk.
I mean, unless you want me to. If you say the word, I won't ever think about it again, okay?
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If it did, I would want to. It should be someone who loves you.
He did?
I don't know. Do you want to?
I already know he's gonna complain about Lent, so if he needs to blow off steam, I'd rather it be someone I trust.
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You wouldn't need to do it alone, then. And we'd know what to do, now, how to resolve it quickly.
I'm curious, you know that. And I respect Hawk. So maybe? Maybe.
He was more offering in a teaching role. I don't know how much steam that would blow off.
Also which one is Lent?
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Would they know what to do? Actually, you've never told me if you have any traditions like that back home.
He offered to teach you instead of do it to you?
It's the 40 day period before Easter where we give up unnecessary temptations and vices so we can focus on the things that matter. It's been a few years since I've done it properly.
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Not really? Burial at sea is most traditional, I guess, for a sailor. Villagers still bury people in the ground, though. Mark the grave somehow, usually. But we don't really pray or do anything like that.
He offered to "help out". I didn't ask much further because I fell asleep under my bed around then.
I see. What counts as "unnecessary"?
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Oh. Well...we can't get to the sea, and we would have to put you in the ground for you to come back, so that's out of the question.
Do you want me to?
Anything that isn't furthering my relationship with God. Alcohol, sex, excessive consumption. I'll be fasting.
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