The punching worries me. You get too close to them. Someone got his fingers bitten off.
That sounds like I egg him on. I don't do THAT. But sometimes he sees someone flirt with me and gets this idea that he needs to reclaim me. And I like that.
Right. It's nice. I mean I wish you could see it. I wish I could show you what I love about it.
If that ever happens, it doesn't have to be you. I won't ask anyone I love to do that.
You know. He talked about when you're a little rougher. The same things you told me about, the belt, the tying up. I haven't forgotten about what he offered, the night we got super drunk. I mean, unless you want me to. If you say the word, I won't ever think about it again, okay?
Now that the library's fixed, maybe we could see what's there. Books from my world would do, maybe. Movies from yours? Or whatever they're called, personal movies. Home videos.
You wouldn't need to do it alone, then. And we'd know what to do, now, how to resolve it quickly.
I'm curious, you know that. And I respect Hawk. So maybe? Maybe. He was more offering in a teaching role. I don't know how much steam that would blow off.
Home videos weren't around yet in my time. Television screens in the home are still new, I couldn't afford one, myself.
Would they know what to do? Actually, you've never told me if you have any traditions like that back home.
He offered to teach you instead of do it to you?
It's the 40 day period before Easter where we give up unnecessary temptations and vices so we can focus on the things that matter. It's been a few years since I've done it properly.
Really? But film was, right? We don't even have that, when I'm from.
Not really? Burial at sea is most traditional, I guess, for a sailor. Villagers still bury people in the ground, though. Mark the grave somehow, usually. But we don't really pray or do anything like that.
He offered to "help out". I didn't ask much further because I fell asleep under my bed around then.
Oh. Pictures, then? Those are easier, right? I've seen some in books, at least.
Honestly, I'd just want it done as quickly as possible, so I can come back. Businesslike. I have a lot of things to do.
Well, I wouldn't want to do anything you wouldn't be okay with, so...maybe that'd be a good idea? You'd need to approve. That's the most important things.
I see. It sounds sort of like meditation or training, like when someone goes into the mountains and fights bears and sits under waterfalls? [...no.]
Well, yes. But maybe the camera will come with photos of your home. Your world. That'd be neat, right?
Maybe? Maybe. If you were both okay with it. If it wasn't weird. I know neither of you would judge me if I suddenly changed my mind, so.
Fighting needs awareness too. You have to be conscious of yourself and what you can do and your limits and place in the universe. It's not exactly the same, but there's enough similar. Like warriors who fast or meditate before a battle.
I guess it would be. I could show you my sister. Or my church.
I'd be okay with it. Like I said, I trust you. And clearly I don't mind being your guinea pig. As long as it's just tying me up. No sex. At least until Easter.
Exactly, yeah. I'd love to see your family, especially.
You're going to have Hawk tie you up and show you off and you're not going to want to make it sexy? Should I bring a notepad and raise my hand if I have a question?
Wasn't he in the military too? Maybe he'll respect the metaphor.
Use your common sense, Koby. I can't have sex. I would rather if nobody did it around me, until Lent is over. Tying me up can be stimulating but it can't go further than that.
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But yes, he's very cute. They all are.
Did you? Good, I'm glad. You'll have to keep me posted on what you learn. Still swords?
Are you trying to tell me you don't like when he gets possessive and jealous?
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Mostly. With some other things mixed in.
It depends. If he's taking it out on whoever he thinks he needs to be jealous of, I don't like it.
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It's good to be comprehensive. Easier that way to figure out what you like. Punching's been the easiest for me, though I do like the mop handle.
Ahhhh. Only when he's using it as motivation, then?
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The punching worries me. You get too close to them. Someone got his fingers bitten off.
That sounds like I egg him on. I don't do THAT. But sometimes he sees someone flirt with me and gets this idea that he needs to reclaim me. And I like that.
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No, no, with the revenants only the mop handle. Just to be safe. I don't want to get bitten.
Ahhh, that's more what I meant. Territorial with just the two of you.
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Still. You're really close. I don't want to do any more funeral rites.
Yeah. That, I like.
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I'll be careful. I won't do that to you, Tim, I promise.
And you're never scared? Hawk talked a little about
I mean. More intense things.
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Good. Because I wouldn't get through it without crying.
He did? Like what?
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I wish you could see it. I wish I could show you what I love about it.
If that ever happens, it doesn't have to be you. I won't ask anyone I love to do that.
You know. He talked about when you're a little rougher. The same things you told me about, the belt, the tying up. I haven't forgotten about what he offered, the night we got super drunk.
I mean, unless you want me to. If you say the word, I won't ever think about it again, okay?
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If it did, I would want to. It should be someone who loves you.
He did?
I don't know. Do you want to?
I already know he's gonna complain about Lent, so if he needs to blow off steam, I'd rather it be someone I trust.
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You wouldn't need to do it alone, then. And we'd know what to do, now, how to resolve it quickly.
I'm curious, you know that. And I respect Hawk. So maybe? Maybe.
He was more offering in a teaching role. I don't know how much steam that would blow off.
Also which one is Lent?
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Would they know what to do? Actually, you've never told me if you have any traditions like that back home.
He offered to teach you instead of do it to you?
It's the 40 day period before Easter where we give up unnecessary temptations and vices so we can focus on the things that matter. It's been a few years since I've done it properly.
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Not really? Burial at sea is most traditional, I guess, for a sailor. Villagers still bury people in the ground, though. Mark the grave somehow, usually. But we don't really pray or do anything like that.
He offered to "help out". I didn't ask much further because I fell asleep under my bed around then.
I see. What counts as "unnecessary"?
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Oh. Well...we can't get to the sea, and we would have to put you in the ground for you to come back, so that's out of the question.
Do you want me to?
Anything that isn't furthering my relationship with God. Alcohol, sex, excessive consumption. I'll be fasting.
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Honestly, I'd just want it done as quickly as possible, so I can come back. Businesslike. I have a lot of things to do.
Well, I wouldn't want to do anything you wouldn't be okay with, so...maybe that'd be a good idea? You'd need to approve. That's the most important things.
I see. It sounds sort of like meditation or training, like when someone goes into the mountains and fights bears and sits under waterfalls? [...no.]
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I'd say a prayer still.
I guess it depends. He does it to be possessive. I don't want him acting like that towards anyone else. But if it isn't like that, it's okay.
...kind of like meditation of training. But no waterfalls or bears. Where did you get that?
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If it came from you, I'd like that. That's all I'd need.
No, I wouldn't want it like that either. Not from him.
No offense, of course, but he's yours.
It's a technique they talk about in the Marines. I went for the punching-battleships thing instead. I don't like bears.
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None taken. But if you were looking for lessons, I wouldn't mind. I could help, if you want. Someone to demonstrate on.
It's not about fighting. It's about becoming more spiritually aware.
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Maybe? Maybe. If you were both okay with it. If it wasn't weird. I know neither of you would judge me if I suddenly changed my mind, so.
Fighting needs awareness too. You have to be conscious of yourself and what you can do and your limits and place in the universe. It's not exactly the same, but there's enough similar. Like warriors who fast or meditate before a battle.
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I'd be okay with it. Like I said, I trust you. And clearly I don't mind being your guinea pig. As long as it's just tying me up. No sex. At least until Easter.
I guess so. Try selling it to Hawk like that.
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You're going to have Hawk tie you up and show you off and you're not going to want to make it sexy? Should I bring a notepad and raise my hand if I have a question?
Wasn't he in the military too? Maybe he'll respect the metaphor.
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It can be sexy. [ Everything Hawk does is sexy, unless Tim is mad at him, so jot that down. ] Just not actual sex.
Yeah, he was. He was a hero, with the medals and scars to prove it.
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He won a MEDAL? He's never mentioned that! He can tell me all about it while he ties you up :)
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It's a date :)
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