[pink is the color of capillaries distributed through muscle, skin, and other tissue. the stranger acknowledges the palette of the pinneped in question with a vague jig of his head, his thoughts apparently elsewhere.
he sighs. the assessment looks, frankly, fucking dire, but that's not for koby to experience as disappointment. the stranger likes hiking. a good peak is better than a flat trail. cold tides, better than the lake.] Every emotion wants something. Even your joy. Even your shame. [and that—is either a gesture of some value or a careless lapse. the stranger does not talk about shame often. it's the dirtiest fuel available, and unpredictable.]
What do yours want now? Do you know?
[there's not enough room under this table for him to sit upright fully, so his arms leave the gentle grotto made by koby's lap, under the overhang. instead, he grasps the legs of the boy's chair. pushes him back, out over the library carpet. far back enough that 'qimir' can hitch himself out, uncoiling like the predator of your choice. shoulders squaring.]
[koby is, of course, ravenously curious about the direction and focus of the stranger’s thoughts, but – there are manners, propriety, avoiding the nosy shuffle of a too-curious mind through someone else’s head. koby’s never enjoyed having his own thoughts spied on, after all.
so he stays still, thoughtful, except for a startled almost-squeak of sound when he’s suddenly gently pushed away from the table, the movement effortless. koby’s not a particularly large or weighty person to move around, he knows, but there’s a fluidity to the gesture that speaks of strength, power, capability. in light of that, koby keeps his gaze fixed upwards as the stranger uncoils, stands, shoulders squaring and blotting out the light.
almost as an afterthought, looking up and up and up:] I’m not sure. All different things, I suppose? [a beat, taking stock of his emotion, his thoughts, plucking out the ones that have more to say than simply oh, tall.] To be less afraid, I guess. That’s always there.
I can't teach you that, [fails utterly to sound humble. the stranger should stop talking about humility on the network. it's the worst way to persuade anybody it's true. he pulls over another chair with a hand on the back, settles it perpendicular to koby's repositioned perch. he drops himself onto it, glancing around the library.
this is actually not a bad place to do the things he wants to do. he prefers outside, as a general rule. but this is a good spot. the window. the quality light. the gay duck contemplating them from her nest. his eyes come to back to koby afterward and it's a little like they never left. not enough blinking. the stranger is too still again.] I can teach you to bury it deeper. Or change your relationship with it.
[there is a right answer, actually. but the stranger finds that he is not in a rush today, to explain what it is, to drag anybody over rough terrain to the milestones out on the horizon. something about the window, the quality of light, the queer bird listening with her chin pillowed in her own breastfeathers. he is neither as good or bad at acceptance as he believes he is.]
[something about the way he speaks makes koby’s cautious, wide-eyed posture quirk up into something mirthful, bemused, one hand reaching to cover his mouth, cover the grin. it’s – confidence, full satisfaction in his abilities, and it’s the sort of thing koby’s always been drawn to inexorably, irresistibly. luffy had it, that of course i can do that, duh, obviously. the stranger is smooth edges and careful, long looks, not quite luffy’s frenetic sunlit energy, but – koby can’t help but be reminded of him.
so he lowers the hand, lets the flash of his smile be seen, the way his cheeks, his freckled nose go pink with hopeful eagerness, big bright eyes fixed on the stranger with so much unguarded curiosity and happiness that it’s like looking into the sun.]
Change it. I don’t want to go back to burying. [there’s confidence in koby’s voice, firm and eager, and lincoln blinks her knowing, sapphic bird eyes a couple times before closing them in contentment. koby reaches out, strokes her feathers, sits a bit taller.] It’s nice of you to help me, and I don’t – want to waste your time. Anyone’s time.
[firmly, chin up, bright youthful determination:] So. I want to learn everything I can to change, not hide. I want to keep moving forward.
[there is nothing but time here to waste. there are no jedi upon which to spend his cruelty, no vendetta by which he might draw purpose. but the stranger looks at the younger man, chin up and chest out and bright with brass, and cannot bring himself to be anything but gracious—and that's only a little bit of an act.]
Okay. I'll show you. But you still have to let me into your head. No memories. Promise.
[he stoops down then and moves koby's chair again. grip around the leg, rotating him so that they can face each other without losing the back support, which is important, whether you're pushing forty with decades of combat training or barely out of childhood and in need of a squat regimen, according to the soonest available data. and then the stranger is offering his hands. palm-up.
some days, it's very hard for 'qimir' to keep irony out of his face. life at saltburnt seems like a cosmic joke, and it's the only defiance he has, to give zero fucks about it. but koby is very earnest. don't nobody point out that the stranger's expression might be softer for it. unless they're doing it in the unknowable language of ducks.]
[koby keeps his determined posture until the stranger is gently tugging his chair around again, at which point he squawks a little (sorry, lincoln) and scrambles to grab the sides of it to keep from being dislodged. again, there’s a fluttery little feeling in his chest when he thinks about how easily this man in particular can move him around – across a ballroom, through a library, up against a wall – but licks his lips, clears his throat and pushes that back down into a box for the time being.
their chairs are facing one another, and koby sits back up, squares his shoulders, looks at the offered hands for a moment before reaching to settle his, palm-down. he doesn’t hesitate perhaps as much as he should, perhaps as much as truly wise man might’ve, but the way he looks upwards, hopeful, eager bright eyes suggests that pure wisdom is not part of koby’s appeal, in the end.
his mind calms, too, the sensation of early-sunset pink, something still barely peeking over the horizon, something not fully realized, but holding the potential of a sun, several suns, somewhere inside the unassuming boy offering his hands, his smile, his trust that the stranger will keep his word. lincoln watches, nonplussed but aware, ready to adjust her opinion accordingly. she’ll be the cautious, wary force that koby doesn’t possess.]
['qimir' and 'duck' exchange brief glances now. while koby's radiant doe eyes are closed, master and pet will achieve a cool, queer understanding. if the stranger tries something, he'll be out some wrist meat in the shape of a razor-edged beak bite. or his nose? nobody would fuck him if he didn't have a nose.
he looks at his student. maybe koby would feel sorry for him and fuck him if he didn't have a nose. the stranger twitches a smile off his own face. closes his eyes.
the storm wracks the air, splitting atmosphere with the cracking boom of thunder and the raw white light of electricity. claw marks in the sky. below, the sea is devouring maw, black veined with white. caving in one moment, rocketing up into peaks the next. of course it's the sea. but it's angry tonight. not the deep trench boil of the stranger's aura, or the taut, brisk promise of the illusions (hallucinations?) before. this sea is rage. an inhuman scream with no end to the depth of its stratospheric lungs.
and in it, the boat. sails full to bursting. it is so impossibly small. tosses up and down like a toy. there are bodies in it, of course. one of them, pink-haired and slender in moonlight; the other tatty black and skinny, a ship's cat befitting such a pitiful vessel. the wood is wont to burst in the chaos below.
a final detail emerges in a fork of lightning: land. neither near nor far. but the tide pulls away, and the wind pulls toward.]
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he sighs. the assessment looks, frankly, fucking dire, but that's not for koby to experience as disappointment. the stranger likes hiking. a good peak is better than a flat trail. cold tides, better than the lake.] Every emotion wants something. Even your joy. Even your shame. [and that—is either a gesture of some value or a careless lapse. the stranger does not talk about shame often. it's the dirtiest fuel available, and unpredictable.]
What do yours want now? Do you know?
[there's not enough room under this table for him to sit upright fully, so his arms leave the gentle grotto made by koby's lap, under the overhang. instead, he grasps the legs of the boy's chair. pushes him back, out over the library carpet. far back enough that 'qimir' can hitch himself out, uncoiling like the predator of your choice. shoulders squaring.]
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so he stays still, thoughtful, except for a startled almost-squeak of sound when he’s suddenly gently pushed away from the table, the movement effortless. koby’s not a particularly large or weighty person to move around, he knows, but there’s a fluidity to the gesture that speaks of strength, power, capability. in light of that, koby keeps his gaze fixed upwards as the stranger uncoils, stands, shoulders squaring and blotting out the light.
almost as an afterthought, looking up and up and up:] I’m not sure. All different things, I suppose? [a beat, taking stock of his emotion, his thoughts, plucking out the ones that have more to say than simply oh, tall.] To be less afraid, I guess. That’s always there.
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this is actually not a bad place to do the things he wants to do. he prefers outside, as a general rule. but this is a good spot. the window. the quality light. the gay duck contemplating them from her nest. his eyes come to back to koby afterward and it's a little like they never left. not enough blinking. the stranger is too still again.] I can teach you to bury it deeper. Or change your relationship with it.
[there is a right answer, actually. but the stranger finds that he is not in a rush today, to explain what it is, to drag anybody over rough terrain to the milestones out on the horizon. something about the window, the quality of light, the queer bird listening with her chin pillowed in her own breastfeathers. he is neither as good or bad at acceptance as he believes he is.]
Up to you.
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so he lowers the hand, lets the flash of his smile be seen, the way his cheeks, his freckled nose go pink with hopeful eagerness, big bright eyes fixed on the stranger with so much unguarded curiosity and happiness that it’s like looking into the sun.]
Change it. I don’t want to go back to burying. [there’s confidence in koby’s voice, firm and eager, and lincoln blinks her knowing, sapphic bird eyes a couple times before closing them in contentment. koby reaches out, strokes her feathers, sits a bit taller.] It’s nice of you to help me, and I don’t – want to waste your time. Anyone’s time.
[firmly, chin up, bright youthful determination:] So. I want to learn everything I can to change, not hide. I want to keep moving forward.
okay fine this was very anime bb boy
Okay. I'll show you. But you still have to let me into your head. No memories. Promise.
[he stoops down then and moves koby's chair again. grip around the leg, rotating him so that they can face each other without losing the back support, which is important, whether you're pushing forty with decades of combat training or barely out of childhood and in need of a squat regimen, according to the soonest available data. and then the stranger is offering his hands. palm-up.
some days, it's very hard for 'qimir' to keep irony out of his face. life at saltburnt seems like a cosmic joke, and it's the only defiance he has, to give zero fucks about it. but koby is very earnest. don't nobody point out that the stranger's expression might be softer for it. unless they're doing it in the unknowable language of ducks.]
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their chairs are facing one another, and koby sits back up, squares his shoulders, looks at the offered hands for a moment before reaching to settle his, palm-down. he doesn’t hesitate perhaps as much as he should, perhaps as much as truly wise man might’ve, but the way he looks upwards, hopeful, eager bright eyes suggests that pure wisdom is not part of koby’s appeal, in the end.
his mind calms, too, the sensation of early-sunset pink, something still barely peeking over the horizon, something not fully realized, but holding the potential of a sun, several suns, somewhere inside the unassuming boy offering his hands, his smile, his trust that the stranger will keep his word. lincoln watches, nonplussed but aware, ready to adjust her opinion accordingly. she’ll be the cautious, wary force that koby doesn’t possess.]
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he looks at his student. maybe koby would feel sorry for him and fuck him if he didn't have a nose. the stranger twitches a smile off his own face. closes his eyes.
the storm wracks the air, splitting atmosphere with the cracking boom of thunder and the raw white light of electricity. claw marks in the sky. below, the sea is devouring maw, black veined with white. caving in one moment, rocketing up into peaks the next. of course it's the sea. but it's angry tonight. not the deep trench boil of the stranger's aura, or the taut, brisk promise of the illusions (hallucinations?) before. this sea is rage. an inhuman scream with no end to the depth of its stratospheric lungs.
and in it, the boat. sails full to bursting. it is so impossibly small. tosses up and down like a toy. there are bodies in it, of course. one of them, pink-haired and slender in moonlight; the other tatty black and skinny, a ship's cat befitting such a pitiful vessel. the wood is wont to burst in the chaos below.
a final detail emerges in a fork of lightning: land. neither near nor far. but the tide pulls away, and the wind pulls toward.]