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[holyposition]

What do you mean, too much? He's intense, and their family is incredibly complicated, but he's just a man, Koby.

[kobes]

So are you. You're a man who feels things very deeply, even if you stand behind the choices you made. You can believe in what you've decided and still grieve what it's done.

And this is new, still, for you. Loving more than one person. It's not easy.

[holyposition]

I miss Alicent. But if she believes that I have to choose, I can't go back on it or feel sorry for myself.

Don't say love, he'll sense it in the wind somehow and get spooked

[kobes]

You can be sad about it, though. Even if you don't regret it or want to change your mind, you can be sad. I won't tell anyone.

Ahhhh, he's like that. That makes a lot of sense.

[holyposition]

Of course I am. I saved her from the wolf man, it was the first time I'd ever made a difference like that. We prayed together, confided things in each other. I protected her through the game, knowing that there were more likely targets I could be saving instead, and now she doesn't trust me because I'm giving Aemond the same care. It hurts. Obviously, it hurts.

If he goes home, he'll be paired for an alliance, not for love. And he's always known that. So he's never looked for it, never hoped for it. No point. I don't know if he can understand it as an option.

I'm not saying it's that. It's too early.

[kobes]

Right. Right, of course, I guess I'm asking
I'm asking if you're okay. I'm asking if you need to cry or yell or throw things about it, because I know you, and I know you're being strong for Aemond, and I'm proud of you for that. But I want to make sure you're taken care of too.

Maybe not right away. It takes a long, long time to trust that sort of thing, if you've never had it.

Affection, then. Attachment. Something.

[holyposition]

I am.
It sounds like I'm blowing you off, I'm not. But I've been spending a lot of time with him, figuring things out, and it's gonna be alright. I've got Hawk too. I have what I need to get through it.

But if you want to go to the wreck room, I'll come.

Both of those, yes. A lot of it.

[kobes]

And Hawk's been
Okay about it? I mean.
I know you were worried about that, before. Plus he's been sort of insatiable lately, you said.

Maybe, yeah. I get tired a lot easier these days. It's noisier. Especially when people are upset.
Breaking things might drown things out a little.

How long does it take for that to become love, I guess? When do you know?

[holyposition]

He has. He's a little confused still, I think, but he wasn't there when it started.
He hasn't settled down on that front at all, though. Do you think I should be worried? I've got to take rest days, I'm getting sore. I'm surprised he hasn't rubbed himself raw.

Call any time! It's kind of helpful.

I'm not the one to ask. With Hawk it was the first moment that he touched me. But I don't need to tell you that they're different.

[kobes]

Good. Confused is better than angry or resentful, I guess.
Maybe? You think he's maybe just trying to make up for lost time, or is it more than that?
That sounds tiring. Do you think that's why he wants to
You know. Watch us?

Ah. I've usually felt it pretty quickly, but I'm a little bit emotional anyways. I'm not sure if you've noticed.

[He's only cried every single day that you've known him.]

The first moment, really? That's very romantic.

[holyposition]

He was gone for a week, and he's been back for a month. It's not lost time anymore. I don't know what it is.
I think he's trying to try new things? I didn't ask why.

What?????? It slipped right by me 😮 😮

It was...immediately different from anyone else I'd been with. I knew he'd ruin my life before we even got our clothes off.
In a good way.
...usually.

[kobes]

Interesting. Do you think it's related? To him having been gone?
It'd be like this place to have some sort of long-term effects to make our lives more complicated.

Haha. Hilarious. You're a comedian, Tim.

Ah. That sounds [Familiar? Familiar.]
I'm glad it's usually good, at least.

[holyposition]

Maybe? Embry said he came back messed up, but wouldn't give me any specifics. And would probably lie about them, if he did.

Well, you know how he is. I love him. He's infuriating. That's Hawk.

[ If you are noticing a trend, no you're not. ]

[kobes]

That's concerning. [And warrants more questioning, put a pin in That.]

Yes, I do know how he is. Infuriating, broad-shouldered man, much like some other infuriating, broad-shouldered men I could mention...
😇 😇 😇

[holyposition]

Yeah, it's getting...weird. I like having sex with him, but we're both adults, we have other things we need to do. If he had his way it would be nonstop.

I don't know what you mean!

[kobes]

That sounds [Great, actually, but Koby's 19 and his favorite hobby is closed for repairs.] excessive, yes. Have you talked to him about it?

Oh, right. Of course. And I don't have any sort of a thing for sailors, I suppose.

[holyposition]

Some. He doesn't think it's a problem.

Yeah, you do though, even if they look like they haven't washed their hair this month.

[kobes]

Well, at the very least he can manage some of that stuff by himself, right? He has two hands.

They do NOT. I know they have, because I was the one who washed it.

[holyposition]

Or he goes to Embry and we have to fight about it.

You can't even reach the top of Shanks' head.

[kobes]

Ahhh. Then no, best to avoid that. No more fighting, not around the holidays.

I can when he's sitting down!

[holyposition]

We'll be fine.

If he has to sit down for it...