[Oddly, while Koby had stuck firmly to his own crew -- even as it splintered beneath him, as Luffy and Sanji altered their votes, as the tenuous ties, strained by the panic and fear, began to splinter -- he respects how Alicent had played the game. Because that's what it is, all this misery, all this pain: a horrible game, for some end that Koby can't quite pinpoint. He has an idea, of course, and he believes to his marrow that every horrible action committed after the masquerade is the fault of the house, the Balfours (maybe, maybe or maybe they're just as trapped as the rest of them?)
Still: she's been brave. A bravery Koby admires, letting out a soft, endlessly weary sigh, curling his mouth into a slight smile that presses his cheek closer into her hand.] That's clever. Everyone would be "of the Seas" where I'm from, but...here it feels like it could be mine. It reminds me of home. Of -- the village, too. [A beat, realizing how very, very much Alicent doesn't know about him, about what happened between his world and this one.] I was somewhere else, before. I hadn't had time to mention it, I don't think, but -- there, we were changed, our minds, our bodies. That's why I think there's nothing this place couldn't do to us. And I think...turning on one another is what it wants. How it's fed.
[At her last comment, Koby actually laughs, a watery sort of sound, reaching up to cover her hand with his, squeeze gently.] You want to know the strangest part? Before all this, I'd started to feel...almost happy here. I miss home, I miss people I left behind, but...but I've been away almost a year now. I was beginning to think this place could be home too. [A pause, a quiet, knowing look.] At home, the Straw Hats are my enemies. We're on opposite sides of a war. But here, they're my crew. They're my family.
...maybe that could happen for others here. If...that's what they wanted. [It feels absurd to even suggest it, but -- a deadly feud between family, set aside for the sake of this wretched game. Koby feels naive believing it could last in any way, but if Alicent is anything like him (and he thinks she may be, she may have something within her that aches for a sweeter, softer life, without war, without what's awaiting her at home), maybe she wants that for herself.]
[ Even red-rimmed and puffy, Alicent’s eyes remain watchful, assessing the litttle shifts in Koby’s features, the wetness still clinging to his lashes. She listens, rapt, as he describes the place that came before this — a possibility that boggles the mind, when this manor already stands striking and strange.
The corners of her mouth tug downward, at the mention of war. Of course she was naive to think Koby might find a place untouched by struggle.
She musters a knowing, sad smile. ]
Our war has been written in the stars, I fear. Or in blood, when my husband took me to wife and to bed. [ twin bloodlines, doomed to struggle. One cannot take the throne while the other persists. ] We have not forgiven each other’s actions, merely united to lessen the pain for the innocent and seek justice for the lost. I do not anticipate mercy or kindness for my actions this day, not from Daemon Targaryen.
[ Any chance of peace died with Rhaenyra. If Alina was wrong about anything today, it’s this: Alicent has never believed she or her children will be spared. Viserys proved that to her on Driftmark. ]
I don't know if it's relevant, where I was in-between. But the ways they changed us, changed our bodies, turned us into something else...it might be helpful. It might change someone's mind, about whether the wolves are acting under their own power. [Talking about the village makes Koby's stomach turn a little, with nausea, with longing? With a little of each, if he's being truthful. It had been terrible, it had been familiar. He'd known how to keep his friends, his crew safe -- keep them warm, keep them fed. It was simpler.
Nothing is simple now, least of all the machinations at work within Alicent's family. Koby's brow furrows at the explanation, the words that's not fair written all across his face. Alicent had been a Hightower, an outside player, had been wed when she was younger than Koby is now. The words are childish, and he knows it, but they slip out anyway:] That isn't your fault. You didn't ask for any of that. You -- didn't have a choice.
[He knows. He remembers the older girls who'd married, who lived with a baby on one hip and another clinging to their skirts, another growing inside them. He remembers the ones who seemed exhausted and ragged and perpetually hollowed out by their new lives. How they were the lucky ones.]
And you played the game smartly, Alicent. Whatever else is at play, you made the alliances you needed to and kept them even through all that... [Koby waves a hand, meant to encompass the ballroom, the accusation and fighting and anger.] When nobody else could. I think anyone who underestimates that is an idiot. [Daemon included, thinking maybe that because Alicent and Aemond are the only Greens here that there's an advantage. Koby knows better than to assume old wounds are forgiven, just because of the house's madness.]
[ If she could, Alicent would shut out any thought of Koby in a place worse than this, just as she rejects that Aemond may yet die. It would be foolish to spurn his experiences and knowledge, however, least of all when they mirror what she believes true for Alia. ]
It is relevant, Koby. We must remind others that none of us may be fully ourselves, in this game.
[ As for his defense of her, it — it aches to hear it, in truth. After going so long without support or companionship, the presence of it now is overwhelming, as food would be to the starved. It nearly burns, even if she wants for it all the same.
Did she play the game smartly or coldly, selfishly or wisely? ]
I suppose I did not. [ have a choice, that is. She cards her hand back through Koby’s pale strands. ] I forsook one alliance for another, when I bled House Atreides. We shall see if the gods punish me for my sins — or if the Wolves target me for my role in this vote — but I will not rest, until justice is done.
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Still: she's been brave. A bravery Koby admires, letting out a soft, endlessly weary sigh, curling his mouth into a slight smile that presses his cheek closer into her hand.] That's clever. Everyone would be "of the Seas" where I'm from, but...here it feels like it could be mine. It reminds me of home. Of -- the village, too. [A beat, realizing how very, very much Alicent doesn't know about him, about what happened between his world and this one.] I was somewhere else, before. I hadn't had time to mention it, I don't think, but -- there, we were changed, our minds, our bodies. That's why I think there's nothing this place couldn't do to us. And I think...turning on one another is what it wants. How it's fed.
[At her last comment, Koby actually laughs, a watery sort of sound, reaching up to cover her hand with his, squeeze gently.] You want to know the strangest part? Before all this, I'd started to feel...almost happy here. I miss home, I miss people I left behind, but...but I've been away almost a year now. I was beginning to think this place could be home too. [A pause, a quiet, knowing look.] At home, the Straw Hats are my enemies. We're on opposite sides of a war. But here, they're my crew. They're my family.
...maybe that could happen for others here. If...that's what they wanted. [It feels absurd to even suggest it, but -- a deadly feud between family, set aside for the sake of this wretched game. Koby feels naive believing it could last in any way, but if Alicent is anything like him (and he thinks she may be, she may have something within her that aches for a sweeter, softer life, without war, without what's awaiting her at home), maybe she wants that for herself.]
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The corners of her mouth tug downward, at the mention of war. Of course she was naive to think Koby might find a place untouched by struggle.
She musters a knowing, sad smile. ]
Our war has been written in the stars, I fear. Or in blood, when my husband took me to wife and to bed. [ twin bloodlines, doomed to struggle. One cannot take the throne while the other persists. ] We have not forgiven each other’s actions, merely united to lessen the pain for the innocent and seek justice for the lost. I do not anticipate mercy or kindness for my actions this day, not from Daemon Targaryen.
[ Any chance of peace died with Rhaenyra. If Alina was wrong about anything today, it’s this: Alicent has never believed she or her children will be spared. Viserys proved that to her on Driftmark. ]
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Nothing is simple now, least of all the machinations at work within Alicent's family. Koby's brow furrows at the explanation, the words that's not fair written all across his face. Alicent had been a Hightower, an outside player, had been wed when she was younger than Koby is now. The words are childish, and he knows it, but they slip out anyway:] That isn't your fault. You didn't ask for any of that. You -- didn't have a choice.
[He knows. He remembers the older girls who'd married, who lived with a baby on one hip and another clinging to their skirts, another growing inside them. He remembers the ones who seemed exhausted and ragged and perpetually hollowed out by their new lives. How they were the lucky ones.]
And you played the game smartly, Alicent. Whatever else is at play, you made the alliances you needed to and kept them even through all that... [Koby waves a hand, meant to encompass the ballroom, the accusation and fighting and anger.] When nobody else could. I think anyone who underestimates that is an idiot. [Daemon included, thinking maybe that because Alicent and Aemond are the only Greens here that there's an advantage. Koby knows better than to assume old wounds are forgiven, just because of the house's madness.]
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It is relevant, Koby. We must remind others that none of us may be fully ourselves, in this game.
[ As for his defense of her, it — it aches to hear it, in truth. After going so long without support or companionship, the presence of it now is overwhelming, as food would be to the starved. It nearly burns, even if she wants for it all the same.
Did she play the game smartly or coldly, selfishly or wisely? ]
I suppose I did not. [ have a choice, that is. She cards her hand back through Koby’s pale strands. ] I forsook one alliance for another, when I bled House Atreides. We shall see if the gods punish me for my sins — or if the Wolves target me for my role in this vote — but I will not rest, until justice is done.
[ or she can’t seem it any longer. ]