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[holyposition]

...do you have questions? It's been a while since I've been on top, but I know how it all works, obviously.

[kobes]

Um
A couple? I don't know I don't want to
Do something wrong. Or bad or
I don't know.

[holyposition]

You can ask.

I didn't have anyone that I could ask. It was a Catholic college. I wish I did.

But I don't think anything you do could scare Quentin off. He's crazy about you. And he's patient, and sweet. If it's not working for him, I'm sure he'll let you know as nicely as possible and point you in the right direction.

[kobes]

Do you promise it's not
Painful?

Right, you just had to sort of figure it out alone. That's sort of terrifying.

No, you're right, he's good about that. He's very, very good about most things. I'm just in my head about pretty much everything, I'm realizing.

[holyposition]

It can be, if you're not patient and careful. Take it slow, better to be messy and use too much lube than not enough and hurt him.

Unless he likes that. But you should probably take it easy until you get the hang of it. He'll let you know when he's ready. He's good about that, too. Not shy about letting you know he feels good.

[kobes]

[There's a pause, because he's taking notes, because of course he is.]

I can be patient. And you know I'm good at asking if someone's okay. Maybe a little too good.

I'll practice. Somehow. Work out the kinks.



Don't say anything about that word choice.

[holyposition]

You are. I think you'll do fine.

...I could help. If you want to practice. I've never tried the fake ones.

[kobes]

Practice? Like

With me? Really?

[holyposition]

If you want to. Is that weird?

[kobes]

I think it'd be a little weirder if we hadn't
You know
Already done things.

But no, it's not weird. I don't think it's weird.

[holyposition]

If it's not weird, then.
Let me know, if you want. No rush, obviously

[kobes]

Not weird. No rush.
But
Yeah.
I'd want that.

[holyposition]

Good.

Unrelated to that, but have you seen the collars down at Otherworld? What do you think about that?

[kobes]

[Does he pick this exact moment to take a sip of whatever he's drinking and immediately inhale it yes he does.]

I have not
I mean
In passing? I haven't
What?


What do YOU think?

[holyposition]

I don't know yet.

It seems possessive. But I like that, sometimes.

[kobes]

It does, a little. But it's nice to feel
Wanted, I guess? Protected?

[holyposition]

Yeah. I wore that bracelet for a while.

[ The one he made out of the tag from the wolf man party, with Hawk's name on it. ]

I liked it. Having that reminder, you know?

Around the neck seems more intense though. More of a commitment. And a lot less subtle.

[kobes]

I remember. And I get it, yeah. Something to remind you where you belong and
Who to, I guess?

Is that what the cross is for? [And, more specifically: is that why Tim takes it off?]

[holyposition]

The cross isn't like that.

[ yes it is. ]

[kobes]

[Sure, Tim.]

Oh, I see.
They're all symbols, to me. Like my uniform, which is
Gone, now, so there's some irony in that.




I don't know how I'd feel, belonging to someone again.

[holyposition]

I get that. After all you've overcome.

But for me...when it's someone you know will take care of you, there's no better feeling in the world.

[kobes]

You make it sound much more noble than it is. It just sort of happened.

I understand that part. And I hope it
You know. Feels that way again someday.

[holyposition]

It doesn't matter how you did it, it only matters that you did.

Thanks. Maybe someday.

[ Should he call Hawk..............no. ]