I write to you today to plead my pardon for the beastly manner in which I treated you the evening of the 'prom' gathering. Words cannot convey the sorrow I feel when I think of how cruelly and lecherously I behaved toward you when you have been nothing but kind and patient towards myself.
It matters not how much was drink and how much was simply my lack of decorum - my behaviour was unacceptable. I understand if my depravity has quite put you off, and will naturally accept any consequences you choose to enact.
[it's not the first time that koby's witnessed the post-otherworld mood crash/spiral, but it is the first time someone's written him a whole letter about it. it's -- sweet, actually, in it's way.
and of course he responds quickly, earnestly:]
Harry, please don't apologize -- this place has a way of finding one's innermost, repressed desires and making them impossible to ignore. And despite how I was acting, that was far from the first or second or even third time I've given in to said desires.
Though I must admit, never in quite that particular way. It was most interesting and exciting, honestly -- I'd read about it but never done it myself, so thank you for the opportunity. ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა I promise I don't think you're a lecherous or unsafe person to be around.
I imagine you have a headache, though, don't you? ˆ꒳ˆ
[Goodsir's crash is working out weirdly well for him. He was expecting a lot more recriminations.
The power of letter writing!
Also does this mean Koby is... into everything they'd spoken of?]
I am most relieved to find you are not offended. I still feel quite disappointed in myself for not exercising more caution, but my heart is lighter knowing that you do not feel taken advantage of.
I do have a bit of one, yes. I've treated it quite nicely with the 'ibuprofen' though.
I am terribly sorry to ask, but I admit I feel most compelled to: you are not upset, for which I am grateful, and I am sorry if my inquiry is inappropriate, but am I correct in understanding that the interlude was somehow enjoyable for you?
[nobody writes letters anymore, kids these days, etc. etc., old man koby yells at cloud.]
I don't, at all. If I hadn't wanted to engage in anything, I would've simply walked away. [he could've managed to slip into the crowd until the otherworld-inspired urges passed, but -- he hadn't wanted to.]
I'm glad. Please let me know if you need anything else. I'll be in the library all day, most likely, but I'm happy to assist if need be. I feel sort of responsible, actually, having let you drink even though I knew it was your first Otherworld party.
Harry, if it hadn't been enjoyable for me, I wouldn't have done it. I haven't tried that particular type of interaction before very often -- but I've been curious about it. It's on my list. ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵
He is, yes. And I think you're both lovely and wonderful, but it's my duty as his friend to tell you very sternly that I will never forgive you if you hurt him. So. There.
After dinner, perhaps? Lincoln is more pleasant when she's eaten, and she'd like to meet you.
Koby, I assure you that my intentions toward Mr. Laughlin are most honourable. I'd not hurt deliberately him for all the world. Nor shall I ever trespass upon a heart already bestowed upon some other already favoured - in both the case of Mr. Laughlin and indeed yourself, trust that I understand my place. Which reminds me, would your partner prefer to know of my intentions toward you?
That's an excellent answer, Harry. And I don't think you need to worry about my heart or Tim's being big enough -- it's not a trespass if it's freely given. Tim's just had some bad experiences, and I suppose I'm a little protective. What intentions are those? Bathing-specific ones, perhaps? He's a great fan of baths as well, you know.
She's been looking forward to meeting you. I told her all about your crabs.
He has. It's not my story to tell, but when he feels things, he feels them very deeply. It's hurt him before. I don't believe you'd ever deliberately cause him pain, but...
Ohhhh, romantic ones. I see. I'm taking notes, I'll have you know.
She made a lot of hungry sounds, and was most displeased to hear the crabs didn't travel here with you.
But I may accidentally. That remains a possibility.
Well, good. I can't be the only one making notations. But if you think a letter of intent would be appreciated by your partner, I am happy to send one.
Perhaps we will be fortunate enough some day to see the ocean again.
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text; un: goodsir | after prom
I write to you today to plead my pardon for the beastly manner in which I treated you the evening of the 'prom' gathering. Words cannot convey the sorrow I feel when I think of how cruelly and lecherously I behaved toward you when you have been nothing but kind and patient towards myself.
It matters not how much was drink and how much was simply my lack of decorum - my behaviour was unacceptable. I understand if my depravity has quite put you off, and will naturally accept any consequences you choose to enact.
Yours sincerely,
Harry Goodsir
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and of course he responds quickly, earnestly:]
Harry, please don't apologize -- this place has a way of finding one's innermost, repressed desires and making them impossible to ignore. And despite how I was acting, that was far from the first or second or even third time I've given in to said desires.
Though I must admit, never in quite that particular way. It was most interesting and exciting, honestly -- I'd read about it but never done it myself, so thank you for the opportunity. ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა I promise I don't think you're a lecherous or unsafe person to be around.
I imagine you have a headache, though, don't you? ˆ꒳ˆ
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The power of letter writing!
Also does this mean Koby is... into everything they'd spoken of?]
I am most relieved to find you are not offended. I still feel quite disappointed in myself for not exercising more caution, but my heart is lighter knowing that you do not feel taken advantage of.
I do have a bit of one, yes. I've treated it quite nicely with the 'ibuprofen' though.
I am terribly sorry to ask, but I admit I feel most compelled to: you are not upset, for which I am grateful, and I am sorry if my inquiry is inappropriate, but am I correct in understanding that the interlude was somehow enjoyable for you?
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I don't, at all. If I hadn't wanted to engage in anything, I would've simply walked away. [he could've managed to slip into the crowd until the otherworld-inspired urges passed, but -- he hadn't wanted to.]
I'm glad. Please let me know if you need anything else. I'll be in the library all day, most likely, but I'm happy to assist if need be. I feel sort of responsible, actually, having let you drink even though I knew it was your first Otherworld party.
Harry, if it hadn't been enjoyable for me, I wouldn't have done it. I haven't tried that particular type of interaction before very often -- but I've been curious about it. It's on my list. ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵
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I see.
Then I don't suppose the offer still stands? Of the assistance with the baths.
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Were you all right? Did you have a nice rest of your night?
Well. Yes. But I think there's something left undone. I did what you said, and I was promised a reward, so.
So.
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Oh, yes. Very nice.
Then a reward you must have. Tomorrow, perhaps?
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I would like that very much, yes.
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Is he?
I should like that very much as well. My quarters then, perhaps, sometime in the evening?
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So. There.
After dinner, perhaps? Lincoln is more pleasant when she's eaten, and she'd like to meet you.
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Which reminds me, would your partner prefer to know of my intentions toward you?
I would greatly enjoy that!
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What intentions are those? Bathing-specific ones, perhaps? He's a great fan of baths as well, you know.
She's been looking forward to meeting you. I told her all about your crabs.
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[Ok, now you got him blushing, Koby.]
Yes, those. And romantic ones.
Did she have much to say on the matter?
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Ohhhh, romantic ones. I see. I'm taking notes, I'll have you know.
She made a lot of hungry sounds, and was most displeased to hear the crabs didn't travel here with you.
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Well, good. I can't be the only one making notations. But if you think a letter of intent would be appreciated by your partner, I am happy to send one.
Perhaps we will be fortunate enough some day to see the ocean again.
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I think he'd find it delightful, just like me. You two would get along well, I think. Has Tim told you about, ah
How we share?
I hope so. I try not to think too deeply about it, but it’s an ache that never quite goes away.
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Only that you do. He of course would never divulge details, and I would never ask.
I understand completely. It's strange - I spent so long missing England, and now I am home and find myself wishing for a different sky.
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Never? I wouldn't mind if you did. I think your imagination is just as vivid as mine is, with the proper motivation.
That's it precisely. I used to wish I was anywhere else, but now that I am, it's a little unsettling. Do you miss the north, then?
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Oh yes, very much. I dream of it often.
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Good dreams, I hope? I have a lot of just sitting on the deck of a ship and looking at the stars, which is nice.
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Sometimes.
Oh, yes, that is unlike anything else, isn't it?
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There isn't. I'd never been away from it before, so I hadn't thought to imagine a world without the sea, but...it's very still here. And quiet.
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It is. Does it make it difficult to sleep sometimes?
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Sometimes. I've never slept very soundly, but the stillness and silence don't help with that. I sleep better with someone nearby.
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