[She sits with the question for a while. It's such a simple question, but it feels... silly, almost, to try and talk about it.]
Is it
Fun? Nice?
This places seems to push about it, a lot. It seems you can't go anywhere with having it pushed in your face. I never tried to think about it before. Just that it was dirty and bad and all those sorts of things. Something to do when you're married and never before and you aren't supposed to enjoy it or something's wrong with you.
[not that any of this had been told directly to her face, but it was the general attitude of shame and everything being hushed up, off-hand comments overheard by other adults, etc. It all built up to an image that it was Bad And Wrong]
But here it's clearly not that. No one else seems to be really bothered by it. I'm wondering if I'm just being silly, holding on to something I shouldn't be?
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Is it
Fun? Nice?
This places seems to push about it, a lot. It seems you can't go anywhere with having it pushed in your face. I never tried to think about it before. Just that it was dirty and bad and all those sorts of things. Something to do when you're married and never before and you aren't supposed to enjoy it or something's wrong with you.
[not that any of this had been told directly to her face, but it was the general attitude of shame and everything being hushed up, off-hand comments overheard by other adults, etc. It all built up to an image that it was Bad And Wrong]
But here it's clearly not that. No one else seems to be really bothered by it. I'm wondering if I'm just being silly, holding on to something I shouldn't be?