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Hawk doesn't work here, he doesn't need the accommodation.
His eyes are perfect, anyway.
His eyes are perfect, anyway.
He came in to be a nuisance on purpose and try to distract me.
I got all my work done, regardless.
I got all my work done, regardless.
Yes, a nuisance. He doesn't understand why I want to do this at all.
...how much could you tell?
...how much could you tell?
A masculine provider thing? I mean, he's protective. But he's not the one providing in the first place.
He just needs a hobby that isn't sex.
Bring them over anyway. Work is a good distraction.
He just needs a hobby that isn't sex.
Bring them over anyway. Work is a good distraction.
You know, wanting to take care of you, build a home, things like that. Sociology. Psychology. We don't have any books about that where I'm from, so it's been interesting.
He can babysit Lincoln if he needs a distraction. She's great at killing a mood. Sometimes she jumps on the bed in the middle of things.
For YOU. My mental blocks aren't strong enough yet to keep me from feeling your
You know
Vibes.
He can babysit Lincoln if he needs a distraction. She's great at killing a mood. Sometimes she jumps on the bed in the middle of things.
For YOU. My mental blocks aren't strong enough yet to keep me from feeling your
You know
Vibes.
He did renovate the chapel for me. I don't know if that's the same. But mixing drinks a couple nights a week isn't getting in the way of us having a home together.
She'll be perfect.
Could you feel what was going on the other night?
[ With the vibrating plug??? Humiliating. ]
She'll be perfect.
Could you feel what was going on the other night?
[ With the vibrating plug??? Humiliating. ]
He did? That's sweet. Definitely nesting behavior. [Koby, amateur psychologist here.]
Of course it isn't. It's healthy, even.
Good, I'll drop her off one night before work. See what Hawk does.
I try not to pry when I can tell somethings happening, but
I could tell something was happening.
Of course it isn't. It's healthy, even.
Good, I'll drop her off one night before work. See what Hawk does.
I try not to pry when I can tell somethings happening, but
I could tell something was happening.
It's beautiful, and not a single blood stain. You should see it.
I don't know if he's a bird guy. He was really bent out of shape about the whole chicken thing during the wolf games.
...sorry. It won't happen again. He insisted.
I don't know if he's a bird guy. He was really bent out of shape about the whole chicken thing during the wolf games.
...sorry. It won't happen again. He insisted.
[Koby wishes he didn’t. He wishes he had Tim’s faith, that it’ll turn out okay – he’ll either find some way to bring everyone he loves with him wherever he goes next, or at least he’ll be able to remember them all, have that to comfort him. Wally’s lighthouse metaphor, a tether, a bond that can’t be broken. But he’s a doubter by nature, burned enough times that hope is always tempered with dread, fear. He wakes up every morning and reaches out – physically, mentally, psychically – to make sure the sparks of those he loves are still there, still with him, and he dreads the day he’ll wake up and find another missing. Left behind, again.
Still, it’s easier to believe in a good outcome with Tim’s arm around his shoulders, radiating warmth, even in the midst of his own grief. Koby sniffs, wipes at his eyes, sloshes wine onto his shoulder in the process.]
I don’t think I could ever hate them – not Luffy, at least. Not the others, if I – remember them. [Another sigh, dropping his head onto Tim’s shoulder again.] But I’m just one person. I can’t stop a war that’s been going on for centuries all by myself. Even if I don’t believe it’s right anymore.
It’s easier to be black and white. [A touch wryly.] That all pirates are bad, that all Marines are good. It’s harder, finding people who are in-between.
Still, it’s easier to believe in a good outcome with Tim’s arm around his shoulders, radiating warmth, even in the midst of his own grief. Koby sniffs, wipes at his eyes, sloshes wine onto his shoulder in the process.]
I don’t think I could ever hate them – not Luffy, at least. Not the others, if I – remember them. [Another sigh, dropping his head onto Tim’s shoulder again.] But I’m just one person. I can’t stop a war that’s been going on for centuries all by myself. Even if I don’t believe it’s right anymore.
It’s easier to be black and white. [A touch wryly.] That all pirates are bad, that all Marines are good. It’s harder, finding people who are in-between.
I'd like to. Maybe not when you're doing anything formal, but to visit.
Well, Lincoln is completely different. She doesn't involve herself with our affairs, most of the time, unless me or Quentin are involved. Then she bites. Hawk will just need to be nice and he won't get bitten.
You don't need to be sorry. Like you said, you got all your work done. Also don't pretend you didn't love every minute, Tim, really.
Well, Lincoln is completely different. She doesn't involve herself with our affairs, most of the time, unless me or Quentin are involved. Then she bites. Hawk will just need to be nice and he won't get bitten.
You don't need to be sorry. Like you said, you got all your work done. Also don't pretend you didn't love every minute, Tim, really.
You can come tomorrow morning! It's best when the sun shines through the windows.
Being nice isn't always his strong suit, you know that.
Oh, I'm not. Just...wouldn't want YOU to love it too much.
Being nice isn't always his strong suit, you know that.
Oh, I'm not. Just...wouldn't want YOU to love it too much.
That'd be nice. Should I bring anything? How long can I stay? Remind me of the rules.
I know, I know. But he IS trying. I'm sort of surprised with how much, actually.
I said I wasn't prying! I thought very hard about ice fishing and whales any time I got close, so I didn't get all ambiently heated up.
I know, I know. But he IS trying. I'm sort of surprised with how much, actually.
I said I wasn't prying! I thought very hard about ice fishing and whales any time I got close, so I didn't get all ambiently heated up.
You don't have to bring anything. A candle maybe, if you want to say a prayer with me. You can stay as long as you like.
He's been different since he died. He lets himself be happy now.
I don't mind if it's you. And you don't tell Nami.
He's been different since he died. He lets himself be happy now.
I don't mind if it's you. And you don't tell Nami.
That might be nice, actually. Does it have to be for someone who's died or can it be for someone who's
Not here in the house anymore?
Good. You deserve that, but so does he. You can tell him I said that, too. Your world hurt both of you, you just show it in different ways.
I won't tell Nami about your escapades, don't worry.
Was it fun?
Not here in the house anymore?
Good. You deserve that, but so does he. You can tell him I said that, too. Your world hurt both of you, you just show it in different ways.
I won't tell Nami about your escapades, don't worry.
Was it fun?
You can pray for anyone. They don't have to be dead or missing. I pray for you all the time.
You wouldn't recognize me if you knew me back there. As much as I hated all the sneaking and secrets, I did it.
I think you'd know the answer to that even without any haki.
You wouldn't recognize me if you knew me back there. As much as I hated all the sneaking and secrets, I did it.
I think you'd know the answer to that even without any haki.
It’s like... [ Tim sighs, taking another drink from his glass, noticing the edges of the world start to blur and in no mood to fight it. ] It’s like all those history books we’ve been reading, right? No one person can force change, even the leaders. Abraham Lincoln had help. You’ll find yours and I’ll find mine. People know when things are wrong, they just need someone to give them the hope to do something about it.
[ An optimism he didn’t always have, or couldn’t apply to his own troubles. The inherent goodness of other people has always been clear to him, but his own? He tried and tried, but it took years to see the forces holding him down as something that even could be struggled against, rather than a natural consequence of his own wrongness. He accepted his lot in life of loneliness and perversion, until he met Hawk, and then accepted that as something he would always have to hide. This place has shown him otherwise. Not just in the history books where he can track the changes, but seeing so many people step up and offer help to complete strangers from other worlds when everything around them is difficult, confusing, or dangerous. How can it not give him hope?
Tim lays his free hand on Koby's head, stroking his fingers through pink hair, the shell of his ear. ]
Maybe it’s the opposite. We all sin, it doesn’t make us evil. Good people aren’t perfect and bad people weren’t always that way.
[ An optimism he didn’t always have, or couldn’t apply to his own troubles. The inherent goodness of other people has always been clear to him, but his own? He tried and tried, but it took years to see the forces holding him down as something that even could be struggled against, rather than a natural consequence of his own wrongness. He accepted his lot in life of loneliness and perversion, until he met Hawk, and then accepted that as something he would always have to hide. This place has shown him otherwise. Not just in the history books where he can track the changes, but seeing so many people step up and offer help to complete strangers from other worlds when everything around them is difficult, confusing, or dangerous. How can it not give him hope?
Tim lays his free hand on Koby's head, stroking his fingers through pink hair, the shell of his ear. ]
Maybe it’s the opposite. We all sin, it doesn’t make us evil. Good people aren’t perfect and bad people weren’t always that way.
You do? Why? I'm fine.
Maybe not. You probably wouldn't recognize me back home either. At least not when I was on the pirate ship. I was [pathetic, cowardly, a shell of who he is now] different.
Don't suppress my scientific inquiry. Maybe I'll want to try something like that again someday. ["Again".]
Maybe not. You probably wouldn't recognize me back home either. At least not when I was on the pirate ship. I was [pathetic, cowardly, a shell of who he is now] different.
Don't suppress my scientific inquiry. Maybe I'll want to try something like that again someday. ["Again".]
And I want it to stay that way. I pray for your happiness and safety.
I believe it. You’ve grown a lot just in the time we’ve been friends.
Checking in on me while I’m getting teased, or letting someone hold the remote?
I believe it. You’ve grown a lot just in the time we’ve been friends.
Checking in on me while I’m getting teased, or letting someone hold the remote?
You're welcome. 🙂
I think it has. I hope so.
Even with Quentin? He's pretty good at it.
I think it has. I hope so.
Even with Quentin? He's pretty good at it.
I think if the things that happened this month happened last summer, neither of us would've been able to handle it. We might've gone insane and ran into the lake.
I can get closest with him, I guess. I can let go and surrender and all that, but I can't add anything like
You know. Ropes or belts or things like that. I don't want to ruin a nice night by suddenly panicking or making a mess of things.
I can get closest with him, I guess. I can let go and surrender and all that, but I can't add anything like
You know. Ropes or belts or things like that. I don't want to ruin a nice night by suddenly panicking or making a mess of things.
the person I was when I showed up here would not have survived most of this.
You know, if you don't like that stuff, it's okay. You don't have to.
But you could try with me, if you want.
You know, if you don't like that stuff, it's okay. You don't have to.
But you could try with me, if you want.
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